Rashmi Dhakal Lalitpur
(Part 3/3) “I remember every detail of the incident. The color of the clothes he was wearing, what I was wearing, the place where he was seated, where I was seated all in great detail. This vision keeps haunting me and it makes me angry. It makes me angry that my call for support was dismissed. These incidents have made me question the motives of people. I have serious trust issues. It also makes me angry that we are groomed in a society that thrives on judging others. Someone who comes out publicly with their stories is dismissed, trolled, blamed, and shamed making them all the more vulnerable. It is not a safe environment for girls. Their honesty is used against them. This all leads to an immense physical and mental impact on girls who experience these acts of sexual violence especially because they cannot share it with anyone. I think that we need to all come out and talk about it. All of us girls and women need to come out and tell our stories. That might be our closure for I do not trust the system to deliver justice to us. The one thing that I take solace in is the fact that my parents have admitted their misjudgment. They tell me they are sorry. I accept it but my heart goes out to the girls and families whose lives have been destroyed. I shudder at the thought.”