(Part 2/2) “We were already entering the fourth year of our marriage. I was due to have another child. My husband had started talking about going to a foreign country to find work. I would tell him not to leave me alone in the house. I would ask him to get a loan and start a business in the village or the nearby town. But my words meant nothing to him. He would say, “Don’t pressure me into doing this or that. I have made up my mind and I am leaving.” He took 40000 rupees and left. It was then after a week I started hearing the villagers talk. I learned that he had not gone for work but with another girl. He had gone to India. When I found out my body gave in. I had been deceived by the one I loved. I had been discarded like an object by the person for whom I left my father and mother. I cried looking at my son and my daughter who was still in my womb. One day he sent me a picture of this girl. I asked him who she was and he made an excuse. “Oh, we are just friends. Don’t worry.” I asked him when he was returning home. He did not give any definite answer. I had a very difficult time during my pregnancy. There was no one to look after me. And the knowledge of my husband with another woman broke me. How could someone be so heartless? I never laid eyes on any other man. I still cannot imagine that. But he betrayed me. I endured. I had to because I had a son and now I was having another child. My daughter was born. He came back home but he left again for Dubai. I found out that he had gone with the same girl. And that they had started living together. Once I got a chance to speak to that girl. I said, “Please spare my husband. You are breaking a family. I have a son and a daughter and I have nowhere to go. You are a woman and we must understand each other’s pain.” She was heartless too. She said, “I cannot do that. Give up your dreams of having a family with him.” That day I sat in the corner and wept. But my mother-in-law could not even tolerate my hurt. My tears did not touch her. “Why are you crying for no reason?”, she exclaimed. She knew very well about my husband’s affair. I had no support.

But maybe it is God who has given me the strength to carry on. I am still at my husband’s home and he is still in the foreign country with his new woman. Where can I take my children? Recently, I met with the counselors who listened to my story. They might have figured out that I was sad. At one point I even thought about asking them for some medicines to give me relief from my thoughts. But I thought I will continue meeting them and talking to them. It will definitely ease my pain. So I do and I am happy that at least there are some people who understand my pain. They are people who will listen and offer words of advice. Recently, I spoke with my husband again. He said, “Forget about me. Now that you have two children, when they grow up, they will look after you.” I did not say anything although some tears ran down my face. I wiped my face and went into the kitchen to cook for my children.”

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